source: ‘Move. Nourish. Believe’ Lorna Jane Clarkson
I always find it very interesting, almost amusing to the point of annoying that when you are in the decision making stage of change, that no one seems to have much of an opinion. Almost like the grandstands are in that hushed, holding breath moment of ‘ohhh whats going to happen next’ and the minute, almost to the second where you have made your decision, and its concrete in your heart and your mind, the crowd erupts! EVERYONE has an opinion, a reason why what you are doing is wrong, why in their opinion you should have done x, y or z – really anything except what you have done, or are doing.
<and here is where i thank god, the stars and all the grains of sand, for the invention that is twitter, commenting systems on blogs, family and the inner circle – because they have always consistently, been supportive and encouraging every step of the way>
But you know the other sort of people I am talking about, the people that I mean. The haters that hate, because you’re cutting a bit too close to the bone. Because you are a reflection of what they wish to be, and for whatever reason haven’t moved a millimetre to becoming. Because acknowledging that will force them to change and move out of their comfort zones. Because why should you get to splurge on expensive clothes when 90% of the time you budget extremely well, and how dare you start glowing because of all the little changes you have made.
Don’t worry, I don’t recognise me either. This person who craves a banana or boiled egg when they are feeling tired to give them sustained energy over a twirl or packet of smiths crinkle cut plain chips. The person who has only had takeaway for one meal this entire week, and even then it was pasta – not mcdonalds. I don’t know this person who is excited to go home because its sunny and she can’t wait to run. This person who just signed up to the gym to work on strength and stretching. This person who finally understands her body and how it works and how many calories are right for it, and how it responds to the activities it is doing.
What I do know, is that in every step, every cent spent, every hour pored over the latest research, meal plan or information, is that i am loving myself more and choosing which voices will be loudest. Because when I am able to do that, and do that consistently then the more the changes will be suitable, and sustainable.
As Dan said in that movie Half Nelson, ‘When you breathe, you inhale and you exhale, but every single time that you do that you’re a little bit different than the one before. We are always changing.’ Thats right. Always changing. And if loving myself more, means that I’m someone that I have never been before, then so be it.
Because I am well and truly on the way to becoming the best version of me.
Every. Single. Day.
< and part of being the best me, is supporting my peeps in this online community – gorgeous Peggy and her self love soiree, helping me to remember that joy starts with being kind to yourself>